{"id":956,"date":"2007-12-06T19:36:23","date_gmt":"2007-12-07T03:36:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/?p=956"},"modified":"2007-12-06T19:36:23","modified_gmt":"2007-12-07T03:36:23","slug":"some-days-i-am-painfully-aware-that-motherhood-couldnt-hope-to-change-me-as-much-as-i-feared-it-might","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/?p=956","title":{"rendered":"Some Days I Am Painfully Aware that Motherhood Couldn&#8217;t Hope To Change Me As Much As I Feared It Might"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I have been alone this week, well, since Tuesday noon.  Saint Aardvark flew to cold, cold Ontario for a few days and I have been here, eating like a drunk bachelor but keeping the hours of a 82 year old (5:30 am &#8211; 8:45 pm) and otherwise living normally.  Well, but there has been a lot more TV.  Without SA to shame me, I have partaken of shows like The Biggest Loser (not much of it, though, because the love wasn&#8217;t there, me having not seen the first quadzillion episodes) and oh hell, what else did I watch.  I don&#8217;t even remember.  <\/p>\n<p>I do miss the sweet SA, because he is someone I am rarely far from but because of that, I don&#8217;t really miss him.  We are together in spirit, you see, and just like every day when he is at UBC working and I am downtown, snoozing, we are far apart but still together.  Gag!  OK!<\/p>\n<p>However, tonight I am actually, actively glad that he is far away because I am going to eat an unholy amount of macaroni and cheese in about 6 minutes (are you thinking about how often I mention macaroni and cheese in this blog and wondering if perhaps I have a head made of dairy products?  I would not blame you.) and with him gone I do not have to share, nor do I have to make conversation while I eat.  Check this out, people: real cheese sauce, fresh tomatoes sprinkled throughout, leftover cervelat salami diced up and a crust of butter-soaked toast covered in black pepper and yes, more cheese, because you can never have enough.  As soon as this is posted, I am digging in, pan on a stack of towels in front of me on the coffee table and I am not getting up till the carb coma passes and I can haul my ass up to bed.<\/p>\n<p>Oh, and there&#8217;s half a pan of nanaimo bars for desert.<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.torturedpotato.com\/december6.jpg\"\/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I have been alone this week, well, since Tuesday noon. Saint Aardvark flew to cold, cold Ontario for a few days and I have been here, eating like a drunk bachelor but keeping the hours of a 82 year old &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/?p=956\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[29,16,45],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-956","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-food","category-television","category-the-parenthood"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/956","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=956"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/956\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=956"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=956"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torturedpotato.com\/cheeseblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=956"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}